CRUSHED >.<
Oh see this Mumma, my eyes are filled with so many lovely colors, Daddy see my eyes have created a beautiful fairyland, brother, see I'm the princess here, sister, see that smile, how beautiful it looks on me. ^_^
"The standard of your dreams is too low", says Mumma
" We would be made fun of in the family and society", says Daddy
" Learn something from me",says brother
" Sacrifice like i did", says sister
My heart says..." Mumma, I don't know how my dreams have a low standard, 'cause in my sight they are the highest on standards, 'cause everything has a too low standard to make me smile like I do with those dreams.
Daddy, what is there to be ashamed of. I don't know about the family, but my heart is ashamed as I can't help myself, and I'm scared it would leave me.
Brother what shall I learn from you? To be born as a son in the next life?
Sister you shouldn't have sacrificed, now they expect me to do the same. :( "
My mind says... " Mumma is right, look for yourself what a down standard you have.
Daddy, would be left ashamed all his life in front of everyone, would be made fun of just because of you. He may end up getting ill and then critical.
Brother, says right, learn something from him, how he keeps mumma and daddy happy.
See how sister has kept your parents happy by sacrificing. "
Now here I am in a big room full with the fighting voices of my heart, my mind, my family, society, supporters, encouragers, discouragers.
I wanna get out of here. Show me the light please. the voice of my soul is drowned, I'm deaf to it. Please get me out of here. Oh yes I have a smile that people consider beautiful, but it's fake. You would have known if you would have seen my smile in my dreams. Is there anyone who would get me into the light?
~ Sanjhi
Oh see this Mumma, my eyes are filled with so many lovely colors, Daddy see my eyes have created a beautiful fairyland, brother, see I'm the princess here, sister, see that smile, how beautiful it looks on me. ^_^
"The standard of your dreams is too low", says Mumma
" We would be made fun of in the family and society", says Daddy
" Learn something from me",says brother
" Sacrifice like i did", says sister
My heart says..." Mumma, I don't know how my dreams have a low standard, 'cause in my sight they are the highest on standards, 'cause everything has a too low standard to make me smile like I do with those dreams.
Daddy, what is there to be ashamed of. I don't know about the family, but my heart is ashamed as I can't help myself, and I'm scared it would leave me.
Brother what shall I learn from you? To be born as a son in the next life?
Sister you shouldn't have sacrificed, now they expect me to do the same. :( "
My mind says... " Mumma is right, look for yourself what a down standard you have.
Daddy, would be left ashamed all his life in front of everyone, would be made fun of just because of you. He may end up getting ill and then critical.
Brother, says right, learn something from him, how he keeps mumma and daddy happy.
See how sister has kept your parents happy by sacrificing. "
Now here I am in a big room full with the fighting voices of my heart, my mind, my family, society, supporters, encouragers, discouragers.
I wanna get out of here. Show me the light please. the voice of my soul is drowned, I'm deaf to it. Please get me out of here. Oh yes I have a smile that people consider beautiful, but it's fake. You would have known if you would have seen my smile in my dreams. Is there anyone who would get me into the light?
~ Sanjhi
